Don't Lose Heart

A Birthday Wish

One of the traditions in our family is at their birthday dinner we offer a birthday wish.  At Grandpa Eckharts seventy-six birthday nine year old Peter had a wish:  “Grandpa I wish you were a little boy again, so you could come out and play with us.”  Grandpa said: “ Peter I wish that wish could come true.”

Now I needed a wish to come true!

My search for health and vitality was not always easy.  I went through many physical struggles. Two years ago my body was starting to feel the effects of aging and stress.  Like a flower, the pedals were starting to fall. I was growing tired from my inability to know how to care for it. It was easier for me to look out then to look within.  Until one day I had a body that no longer would let me ignore its needs. I began the fight for my life – I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I remember thinking this lump was just another cyst, it felt like a golf ball in my chest.  My Doctor opened his office on Saturday to give me the results of the biopsy.  He looked very sad.  He began to explain the surgeries, chemotherapy and all that was to come.  I don’t think I heard a word he said. This was really not the cure I was hoping for.  I walked out of his office and my husband Mark said, “ Are you not going to cry?”  I said, “ No, he is not God. “  I than began the prayer: “Please Lord let me stay here, so I can still help and make a difference.”

Crying was an emotion I did not experience very often. You see I was born with a identical twin sister and when she cried I would feel so bad, I did not want to cry and make her feel bad.  Even a child’s cry or a baby’s cry would make me physically sick inside.

I had lived my life like a racehorse. I put on my blinders and move forward.  This news followed the death of my older sister just two years earlier making me a stand-in mother and grandmother to my sister’s family. Adding to my own family the responsibilities was overwhelming.

Cancer treatment options presented “life changing choices”.  My Doctors were kind and compassionate.  I had five surgeries.  I refused all chemotherapy.  I thought the chemotherapy could kill me, not the cancer.  It was against my Doctors advice but it was a risk I was willing to make.  My cancer was complicated by severe anemia. My Doctor, a highly regarded cancer specialist, told me it was the worst lab results he had ever seen in thirty-five years.  He said “ My Dear, I don’t even know how you exist.”   I was sure again it was God and the people who love me that still wanted me here.

I wanted to be healthy. I felt lost. I wanted the map.  After 10 years working as a nurse I was never completely happy with all that modern medicine had to offer.  So, I started to work with nutrition and hypnotherapy seeking a more natural path to healing my body and find the motivation and energy to help others.

Helping others is what I like to do even in my profession.  I could go through surgery in the morning and go out in the afternoon and continue my day. I was always amazed how God would give me strength.

I used many holistic way’s to begin to heal my body, working with a Natropath Dr. Lindsey Duncan, Yoga, and prayer.

In life, little effort will bring little results. Healing is something you have to work at.   I still feel far from where I want to be, but at least I feel I’m on the right path.  Each step is one in the right direction. I still check in with my Doctors for blood test and follow up. Now I feel like I will be part of the cure, I was looking for.

I want to share this journey so people will know there is a map. This type of healing, it does exist.  There are people with knowledge that create a path of gentle healing.

I want to live out my life – healthy, vibrant, strong and make a difference for God and Good.  There have been many challenges that have brought me to my knee’s but I know that I can look up and know someway God will shine a light on my path if I have faith.

God bless you and may you discover the gift of healing.

Marlene

Recommendations: I can only tell you what I did and how it worked for me.  The Doctor’s are very careful in the way they work with you. They basically tell you that if the body has all the tool’s it need’s it can heal itself.  My surgeon did not want me to use this approach but I was determined to try and there was not one person who could change my mind. Because of my Nursing backround I was not naive about the treatments they used for treating cancer.  I really was more afraid of the chemotherapy than the cancer itself.  i had seen so much suffering with these treatment’s.  I knew God had a different plan for me.  I wanted to try a different way and if it did not work i knew the Oncologist would still be there. I will share my story more on the phone or in person with someone if they want me to. This is the Doctor and Program I worked with to heal my body. There might be someone searching for a better way to heal their body.  These are all plant based products with no side effects.  https://www.askdrlindsey.com/.  Dr. Lindsey Duncan has a great track record for working with patients that are facing cancer.  This is an article he wrote on cancer:  http://www.genesistoday.net/dr_lindsey_duncan/fight_cancer_for_life.html“